Getting My Act Together

*is laying curled up enjoying the night* Hello everyone I have neglected to post for a while, so I thought I'd pay a visit. Things in my life right now are hard, but I believe in my heart that while it will never be easy, things will improve once I get away from where I am now. Like for one thing, I won't have to deal my aunt not letting me go places just so I can take her mutts outside. Another, I won't have to deal with her bitchy attitude. But there are also things that I need to improve that I don't think leaving here will do. Like I will start a major budget once I move on campus. Aside from paying my cell phone bill and for things I need, I am only spending an excessive amount of money for clothes when I need some, school supplies, and Christmas/Birthday gifts. Oh and paying to go see my beloved hehe Oh yes hopefully if things go according to plan, I am gonna go see my beloved this Christmas. The main thing I worry about is that I know for a fact that my mother would be real upset with me for "abanding my family just to go see a guy I met through the internet" And I would see her point and feel half guilty, but I am growing up. She is going to have to deal with the fact that I am starting my own life. Either way, I will go see my beloved, one way or another. I can't wait for tomorrow. I am going to me and my big sis's college to get some stuff I need and then if it's not raining hopefully her and I are going swimming. Ironic that us kittys love to swim lol I am trying to get my big sis to come with me to see my beloved, but it is fine if she does not come, it would just be fun if she came. Plus she could help keep me and my beloved um distracted so we could not do.....uh certain things. Oh yes there is one unfortunate thing. He is 16 and I am 20, so for 2 years, it will be illegal for him and I to do "that" So we are going to do our best to resist. But it's a good thing because I don't want to jump into that anyway, partly in case it does not work out (sex is emotional to me v_v) and I think it prove how true our love is. Plus the longer we wait, the more special it will be. Besides, with his family being around for Christmas, I doubt we'd get to. Now if he does come next year during the summer, that's another story.... Anyway I just hope that being in college the next 6 years will help me become a more mature and independent person

I got my first cell phone!

*jumps up and down excited* Little Kitten is so happy! I got my first cell phone! For 2 months I'm gonna have the call 5 plan so I can call those I need to, but once I move on campus I will switch to the cheaper plan since I'll have my own phone in the dorm room. Me and my big sis went on a nice walk this afternoon and she let me borrow her laptop so I could add my 5 people (including her of course hehe) ironically my internet is working now, I did not expect to work again anytime soon. But that makes me happy and I know it'll make my big sis happy ^_^

Is sick of her stupid job

*curls up into a ball as I whimper* I'm so sick of my job. I work at a nursing home called The Waters of Clinton. I love the residents, I like making some money, but I hate what my job is. I'm a PRN, which means that I usually only come into work when my co-workers want or need me to. The worst part is that every time I make plans, I get called into work, usually by my co-worker Summer. (I'm not over exaterating either) I'm so sick of it. Today I made plans to go swimming with my mother, her friend Bob, my brother and my friend Robert, but my work place called saying I have to go in. My other co-worker was out of town and Summer had a doctor appointment at 4 in the afternoon. (I hope she at least tried to make the appointment earlier instead of just instantly making it at 4) Shelly told me that if the state did not come to do inspections today, I would not have to come, but I have to. It's at times like this that I feel so tempted to just say "screw it" and quit my job. But I know that would be irresponsible, so I won't quit until August 1st (Since I'm moving on campus, I will get a on-campus job) I'm also sick of how it's nearly always Summer who calls me into work. I mean, it's like she'll call me, give me her reason why she can't come in, I tell her that I already made plans, but she guilts me into it. Then one time when there was this event called the Red Eye Night (as in you stay up all night) that this church does once a year (I have not been to it in 2 years) and my friend Robert and my cousin DJ asked if I'd like to come, I knew that I had to work that Saturday, so I knew that the only way I could go is if Summer would switch the days with me and she work Saturday and I do Sunday, so I called her asking if I could, but she said no because she already made plans. I tried to convince her, but she would not switch with me. It felt so unfair because I've cancelled or postponed my plans many times for her, but she could not do it for me this one time. *sighs* I just really can't wait to get out of there. Now I'm really mad, I just saw my co-worker Summer's status on Facebook and she wrote in it that she's going to Terre Haute to hang wish some friends for the afternoon and night. She lied to get out of work!!!!! I swear if it were not for the fact that I don't want to start anything with my co-workers, I would so chew her out and tell our boss! Plus, I can't actually prove 100% that it's true. So I have no choice but to cancel my plans because that b**** wants to hang with her friends.

Just another Sunday

Most of today went by pretty slow, but then when I stepped outside, I felt the most wonderful feeling.......it was actually comfortable enough to be outside! I was so happy that I thought I was going to cry. So I grabbed a couple of books I bought recently with my big sis and went outside in my back yard behind my giant bush to read. I did not wear any shoes, so that was extra nice :)

Is Worried (again)

I have never felt such a strong and overwhelming combination of jealously, worry and sadness all at once. My boyfriend who lives in Iowa has a friend over today that's a girl. I know I should be more trusting, but since we've not been dating for a real long time, I don't know if he's the type who would cheat or not. I hear supposedly that guys are 60% more likely to cheat when in a long distance relationsip. Probably one of the reasons why long distance relationships don't work out very often. I can't stand feeling this way, it hurts and it makes me feel ashamed of myself because I want to be more trusting. I'm not going to tell how that I feel this way though. I don't to make him feel bad or give the impression that I'm one of those paranoid and over controling girlfriends. I cannot stand girls like that. Just because a guy has a girlfriend does not mean he can't be freinds with girls. I mean I have lots of guy friends, so it's only fair that he can have girls that are friends. But I still can't stop this feeling of anxioty. I only hope that things go well. But if he does fall in love with a girl who he can see in person, even though it will make me very sad, I won't stand in his way. I want him to be happy.

Is Worried

*paces back and forth twitching my tail anxiously* Little Kitten is super worried about her big sister. It seems like this creepy guy who she met might be stalking her. I really hope not > < Hopefully J will fix things up. Well I had a crappy day at work today. We were short staff, (everyone is getting sick) so I was practically by myself this morning. And it's not as easy as it sounds. I have to take each resident's orders, pass out drinks, bibs, silverware, and pass out the breakfast trays. It sux I hope I don't get called into work this Wednesday. I want to go to the county fair with Kitten. I'll just make sure to leave with her as soon as possible. Catch me if you can my co-workers! I'm hoping Friday turns out well. I'm going to the county fair with my mom, her friend Bob, my brother and my friend Heather Yocum. It'd be fun to goof around with her, my brother and my cousin Jared. Well that's all I have to say for now. Till next time my kitty followers

Hello :)

Hi there everyone. I am Kitten's little sister *plays with a ball of yarn* Over the many posts I will eventually put up, it will be obvious how different I am from my big sis. hehe Sooo....what can I say? I had a pretty suckish day. I had no energy due to the fact I'm about to start my time of the month. Totally sux. On top of that, I had to work despite my lack of energy. Oh well at least I'll have a good paycheck lol I had to work every day for the past week, so I know it will be a good paycheck. But I am looking forward to a break haha. I just have to say that I love my big sis. She's always so patient with me, listens to me, accepts me for who I am and is just the bestest friend I could ask for. :) I love you Kitten! I look forward to being roomies in college with you. Don't worry, I won't redecorate.....much hehe. That reminds me, there is this picture my mother got that I've been trying to beg from her. I know big sis would love it. It's a classy picture with a little girl playing with a kitty. It's very pretty and very cute. It would look so nice in our room. :) Well I can't think of anything else to say. I guess I will say that tomorrow if I'm not too tired I'm going to stay the night with my mother tomorrow then stay all day Wednesday. But considering how tired I've been getting, I might just go visit her Wednesday. Oh well Well I will go now this kitten needs her beauty sleep *curls up in a cozy spot ready for a nap* Good night friends!