Getting My Act Together

*is laying curled up enjoying the night* Hello everyone I have neglected to post for a while, so I thought I'd pay a visit. Things in my life right now are hard, but I believe in my heart that while it will never be easy, things will improve once I get away from where I am now. Like for one thing, I won't have to deal my aunt not letting me go places just so I can take her mutts outside. Another, I won't have to deal with her bitchy attitude. But there are also things that I need to improve that I don't think leaving here will do. Like I will start a major budget once I move on campus. Aside from paying my cell phone bill and for things I need, I am only spending an excessive amount of money for clothes when I need some, school supplies, and Christmas/Birthday gifts. Oh and paying to go see my beloved hehe Oh yes hopefully if things go according to plan, I am gonna go see my beloved this Christmas. The main thing I worry about is that I know for a fact that my mother would be real upset with me for "abanding my family just to go see a guy I met through the internet" And I would see her point and feel half guilty, but I am growing up. She is going to have to deal with the fact that I am starting my own life. Either way, I will go see my beloved, one way or another. I can't wait for tomorrow. I am going to me and my big sis's college to get some stuff I need and then if it's not raining hopefully her and I are going swimming. Ironic that us kittys love to swim lol I am trying to get my big sis to come with me to see my beloved, but it is fine if she does not come, it would just be fun if she came. Plus she could help keep me and my beloved um distracted so we could not do.....uh certain things. Oh yes there is one unfortunate thing. He is 16 and I am 20, so for 2 years, it will be illegal for him and I to do "that" So we are going to do our best to resist. But it's a good thing because I don't want to jump into that anyway, partly in case it does not work out (sex is emotional to me v_v) and I think it prove how true our love is. Plus the longer we wait, the more special it will be. Besides, with his family being around for Christmas, I doubt we'd get to. Now if he does come next year during the summer, that's another story.... Anyway I just hope that being in college the next 6 years will help me become a more mature and independent person